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I want to do something creative. Write, draw, compose...something.

That timed essay on the CLEP test made me realize that the only things I've written in the past few...years?...were school assignments. The only time I write voluntarily is for LJ, message board posts, or my diary.

But I have no stories in my head, or music in my head (except other people's). And the only thing I want to try to draw is Klaus...but I'm scared to. Because I know it won't look right at first, and then I'll get discouraged and lose my inspiration...so I'm just not trying at all.

I'm too much of a perfectionist. That's what's stifling my creativity...

Finally saw Napoleon Dynamite. Now I can be like all the other cool kids at college.

Geez, I haven't even been 18 a year yet and they've already sent me a jury summons. But I can get out of it since I'm in college. Bwahahaha!

And apparently I'm required by law to give my race. Fine. I'll put "multiracial." Like my mom said, I wonder what they would do if I put "Vulcan?" Or "Homo Sapiens?" Antarctican? Martian? Sindarin?

It'd probably just be proof enough that I missed qualification #4, or whatever number it is, requiring me to be of "sound mind."

I guess it hasn't hit me yet, even though we've been "waiting" for at least 48 hours.

While my parents' generation lived through about 5 popes, John Paul II was the only pope I ever knew. And he wasn't just any pope, he was one of the greatest popes in history.

So now, I sort of have the attitude of "He can't be dead. He has to live forever and ever, or at least as long as I live." And "What do you mean, we get a 'new' pope? He is THE Pope!"

I wish I could philosophize, or something...to put all my feelings into words. But I've already got fantastic philosophers on my friends list, and... I keep fluctuating between joy at his entering heaven and horrible sadness at the loss of him as our earthly leader. And denial.

All I want to say to him now is: St. John Paul the Great, pray for us!

I made a resolution to stop going to bed after midnight, and I've had zero success. I stayed up past 1:00 on Sunday night even though I had an 8:00 class the next morning. And I've been so busy that it's caused my sleep loss to build up this week... so last night was the third time in a row that I've fallen asleep before getting ready for bed and then woken up around 3-5 to realize that I left the light on too.

I know it's got to stop. But I can't help it. The Internet is too addictive...

We're probably going to watch The Passion today. I think I'd rather go see The Passion Recut, but there was only one showing at our theater, which I couldn't make it to.

Well, after seeing The Village, I think at last I've found an actress I can really like.

And now I'm DEAD TIRED and have a headache after my concert tonight. That Tchaikovsky symphony was the longest work we've ever played. But we got the most applause/cheers that we've ever gotten, I think...which makes everything worth it.

Happy Singles Discrimination Day... I mean V-Day.

Um... I wore a red shirt to work?

And the one nice gift today was that, for once, the poodulls didn't win in the Non-Sporting group in the Westminster dog show. (Go Schipperkes!!)

Mac mini

iPod shuffle

Ahh, yes. Two giant leaps closer to Total Apple World Domination. *rubs hands in wicked glee*

You Are 21 Years Old

21 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

Perfect. XD

Oh, and this here icon? First attempt with the Gimp, which is mucho excellente, especially considering the price. (Built-in GIF animator! w00t!)

WHERE ARE ALL MY SOCKS??!!

Oh yeah, I just got into UTSA. So that means... I'm gradjeeated! w0o0o0ttt!!!11!! (x infinity)